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Not a nice morning but better than scotland with -20 temperatures.

I have to go to the surgery again this morn. No too far but on untreated roads.

I'd like to go to the library but think it is not the day for driving more thn one has to.

Ialso need to walk to keep my leg mobile but will have to use the rowing machine and hope that will do.

Where are you all?

The computer power source went *boom* so I was just grabbing a few mo's on DD's laptop now and again, it got fixed yesterday though.

Been busy in the garden, we've put up decking and I've been digging out and trying to get it in some kind of order..it's looking more *rustic* than polished mind you..I am enjoying it though.

Hope you are all well, sending you all a big hug xxx

Hello everyone. I haven't looked in for a while.

Scan on my leg with the two new bypasses says that everything is flowing smoothly. A great relief.

Just waiting for the leg ulcers to heal. (thts been waiting for nearly two years but I think things are improving with the better cirdulation.)

Glad everything is going ok with your leg John that is really good news, I can't get into FH any more I'm banned permanent, the reason is I cannot get on with people, so I take it the gun topic blew their heads off and they got shot of me

I'm keeping on at FH but it does get irritating with their antiObama, anti healthcare, Israel is perfect etc.

Seems so unbalanced.

I dont like facebook so I shall be here from time to time to talk to you all. It is my favourite forum.

Tissue Viability nurse has changed the dressings again. My leg still isn't healing.

All the Best,
john

,Saw the consultant this am. He isn't too happy but doesn't want to see me for two months.

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Been letting other internet places get in the way of coming here, tbh trying to sell my stuff to raise some cash.
That does sound mercenary doesn't it [You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]
Not just for that reason, but it does help.

Got my appointments through for the hospital, both in August.
Tim had to go for xrays today.
And Claudia's BF has been in & out of hospital twice, he's really poorly and the docs have not done him justice yet. Hoping they will soon.

Hello. Sorry I have failed to log in. No good reason'

Stilltrying to recover from my two bypasses. Consultant says I can go on holiday in Sept.

Sorry I haven't been in here either, and sorry to see the problems with your legs are continuing
John.
Elaine I know your having problems to with your health and in this house we have our ups and downs daily to, but just glad that we are able to soldier on knowing that God is in control.
I've has so many family ups and downs too many to mention but mainly the reconciliation with my oldest daughter which in itself brought little conflicts from other of my children, but it is ironing itself out more and i'm hoping to go and see my new grand kids in the next few weeks, Adele is moving up London way until Christmas and that to kinda depresses me as I will miss her and the kids so much. My daughter Daye is still very happy in her new house so thats something ut my son Joe stormed out the other night when we were watching Glen Beck as we began to talk about Jesus, so he got into a right old strop at the mention of his name and slammed the door behind him.
Kids eh!!! to us they never grow up and by sometimes their actions they REALLY NEED TO lol
Maybe popping in here some more releases the burden on my mind

Oh this looks different from how it did yesterday ....well done Anne .....I confess I haven't been around in here but funnily enough I did pop in just yesterday. How is everybody ? xx

Anne just read your post above....hey if you're coming down to Lorraine's, perhaps we could meet up ? If Adele is coming down this way too I'd love to meet up with her also. I know little Destinay loves Bluewater and I go there all the time so perhaps we could have a morning there and have a coffee or something ? xxx

I have written just above your post Janie, just because I saw you in here yesterday and thought what a waste of a space to leave empty. x

Just saw your post Janie, that would be great ive still it all to organise yet but I'll let you know later on whats happening

(((Anne)))

I know exactly what you mean ref kids, believe me.

DD I worry about constantly, there is never ending strife over something or other, and it really depresses me, it's like a lead weight on my shoulders.

I went out yesterday to post some stuff and have a look around town, came home, felt ok, something approaching human, then DD came home and bam, something happens (she brought something up, I tried to talk to her about it, etc, etc) and I can feel this huge weight of worry descending on me..it's like having a concrete block on each shoulder...everything I do for DD is wrong, whatever I do, whatever I don't do, whatever I say or don't say, it is always wrong, always my fault..and I can't ever see anything changing, I really feel like giving up and just hiding in a corner.

As with your son, with my DS, he is constantly picking fights about Israel, basically saying that I am a bigot and a liar when it comes to Islam, pointing out all the stuff the catholic church has done wrong etc..homsexuality and religion ..etc..basically just looking to provoke me (part of his apsergers I think, but part not too), and I find it very hard..and now he is studying politics, sociology and psychology, it can only get worse I think.

I love them all very much, and my only desire is for us all to be ok together and happy, but it feels very far from that sometimes, and I feel very hopeless to be honest.

But I can say it is only by the grace of God that I get thoprugh each day, because I am empty and powerless inside.

So, it's not just you Anne, we have such problems too.

((Anne))

(((Anne))) I'm so pleased that you've finally been able to be reconciled with your eldest daughter xxx
It's sounds like God has His eye on young Joe, and prodding him a bit [You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]

Since my last post I've had my initial hospital appointments, and a bit more.

I saw a different doctor who thought my problems had gone on long enough, so he sent me to a bowel specialist, who then sent me for and endoscopy & bowel investigations.
I haven't had the bowel results back yet, but I'm sure that's ok. I did get a call back to the doc last week, and my tum is being sorted with 2 lots of antibiotics + lanzoprozol.
I'm hoping it works first time, sometimes it doesn't but they'll treat it again if not. I go back to the consultant next Thursday (9th)

I went to see another specialist yesterday, for my neck/arm/back problems.
He did a few tests and thinks that the nerve *passages* to my arms have narrowed. I'm waiting for an MRI appointment now.

Tim is still unemployed. We really didn't think it would go on so long, but he has been asked to apply for his old job through the agency they now use.
If he hasn't heard of a start date by Friday, then he's got to go back to see his old boss and he will contact the agency.

And that's about it really. Another craft fair coming up in a few weeks, so still sewing, and for Christmas orders too.

(((Hetty))) Hopefully by the time they reach their 20's things will calm down [You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]

I live in hope!

On the plus side I have learned to crochet..woo hoo!

Seriously though, it will all work out in the end I am sure, as long as I keep giving them hugs and reminding them that I love them then this too will pass...I just wanted Anne to know that she's not alone in having problems.

It's great to know i'm not alone hetty don't get me wrong the teens were one of the worst times, because it's so hard to tell what there thinking half the time, now they just tell me straight when they feel they need to LOL
At the minute 3 are speaking to Lorraine but Lee and Daye simply refuse, that's ok I can see everyone has their own way of going on but it's when they try to interfere, that's when I get stressed out.
Lorraine tried to contact her daughter (that she left) on FB but it didn't go too good I think a lot of people say in the news feed on FB her replies which were really unrepeatable but i don't blame her, the mildest name she called me was an 'old rat' and she has every right to call me that because I was afraid of her other granny and grandad too much and left them all to it (they are not nice people) so the story continues and i'm leaving it all with God because to be truthful it made me a bit ill and i'm just getting back to normal.
Sorry for going on but it's so good to unload x

Elaine wrote:

(((Anne))) I'm so pleased that you've finally been able to be reconciled with your eldest daughter xxx
It's sounds like God has His eye on young Joe, and prodding him a bit [You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]

Since my last post I've had my initial hospital appointments, and a bit more.

I saw a different doctor who thought my problems had gone on long enough, so he sent me to a bowel specialist, who then sent me for and endoscopy & bowel investigations.
I haven't had the bowel results back yet, but I'm sure that's ok. I did get a call back to the doc last week, and my tum is being sorted with 2 lots of antibiotics + lanzoprozol.
I'm hoping it works first time, sometimes it doesn't but they'll treat it again if not. I go back to the consultant next Thursday (9th)

I went to see another specialist yesterday, for my neck/arm/back problems.
He did a few tests and thinks that the nerve *passages* to my arms have narrowed. I'm waiting for an MRI appointment now.

Tim is still unemployed. We really didn't think it would go on so long, but he has been asked to apply for his old job through the agency they now use.
If he hasn't heard of a start date by Friday, then he's got to go back to see his old boss and he will contact the agency.

And that's about it really. Another craft fair coming up in a few weeks, so still sewing, and for Christmas orders too.

My Joe has been for all those tests and has taken the same pills as you Elaine and they are now looking into his blood count as the white cells are a bit wonky, he was bloodless to it's nothing bad but they are keeping an eye on him, I hope everything turns out ok Elaine, please let me know

(((((Anne))))) I didn't realise you were having all those problems re: Lorraine and Lee & Daye. I guessed Daye wasn't on speaking terms ( I could read between the lines with the pics and everything) but I didn't realise she ( Lorraine )had got such a hostile reception from her daughter. Please don't be hard on yourself Anne, it wasn't your fault , and even though I understand you may have been a bit afraid of the other grandparents in time Lorraine's daughter will come to see that. I just thank God that you and Lorraine are reunited ...I think it's wonderful !!! she looks a lovely girl and I can tell she is over the moon to be in contact with her *Mam* again xxx

It's strange Jane that facebook is our main means of comunication at the moment, we phone each other daily to but the reception where she is is not to good and sometimes we get cut off but we can now have a good laugh together something I thought I would never be able to do, I did ask the Lord to help me forgive her and I have but then I had to ask Him to help me forget and now I can honestly say that I speak to her freely with no reserve and all the crap as Hetty would say has disappeared. I know Daye has big problems with everything also Lee but I had to tell them to butt out as that was their problem and that I didn't have a problem anymore, they are ok with me now but still not with Lorraine, your right Jane it comes over in the posts

Morning everyone it's a lovely day here just hoping it's not the calm before the storm

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Didn't come online at all yesterday, and shouldn't be now [You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]

The sun is shining here, but I'm still stuck in the house.
Hopefully I'll be well enough for a wander tomorrow [You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]

You must be feeling really off Elaine, i hope you feel better soon, you've been through the mill lately. My Joe has had a sore throat for 3 months, he has been to a throat specialist they said it was coming from his stomache so gave him the usual pills to calm reflux and he goes back on the 13th of September no more the wiser other than its still sore, life is crap sometimes, I see another craft fare is coming of soon to, i hope you do well at that Elaine. x

Thanks Anne [You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]
I finished my tum meds today, they've left me run down, and I have a sore mouth, but I'm hopeful I'll feel the benefits in a few days.
Now time for another go at a bit of sewing [You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]

Hope you all are well and happy today

Quite a nice day here..got some stuff done in the garden so felt a bit better about that..harvested our spuds..got quite a few but not as many as I had hoped..not sure what I did wrong..better luck next year!

We grew potatoes for the first time this year Het....like you we had a few but overall I was a bit dissapointed, especially after all the days of watering, nurturing etc..lol...mind you our sweetcorn was a success !!Yay...also courgettes, and I've grown a few butternut squash too....
Sorry to hear about your health problems Elaine , here's hoping you soon feel better.
Anne I tried to phone you a couple of times in the week I left a message I think but can't remember now if I did or not..lol